Asraix

Ok. So I have been away for a bit. I've been sick, the second-half has been sick, and the youngest of our group has been sick. Being sick sucks, but it really sucks when everyone is sick at the same time.

But I'm better now and waist-deep in trying to play catch-up on all the work I have to do.

Planning an evening with Jynx and Spacey tomorrow. I haven't seen Spacey in ages. She gets all weired when she invites me to go some place with her and I can't make it. At that point she decides automatically that I must not like her and then she wont talk to me for nearly 6 months. :/

Bi-polar much?

Anyway, so we are supposed to go out tomorrow. I have missed her.

New art. I'm proud. Temple of the Crows.

Today I actually looked through a package I got from Fairy Godfather about a week ago. I am unsure as to how to feel at this moment. I got artsy stuff. Some oil pastels and a sketch book. There was stuff in there for Kindergoth too. Child oil pastels, crayons, sea-monkeys and chocolate. I just finished taking my pastels for a test drive, sketching a meager skeleton from the skull to the shoulders. I'd post it but I have no way to scan it at this moment.

As for how I am feeling... The person who sent me this is hurt me deeply and I'm really afraid to get close to them again.

Spent some time with Jynx, Puppy, Luna, and Fae last evening. We watched 300 with the riff track. Sadly, the riff track could not even save that movie. It's pretty, I guess. But yeah, it totally sucked ass.

Luna was supposed to be at work but I guess once she got the drift that Jynx would be spending quality time with Puppy, she feigned sickness and came home. Though she claimed to be sick, she sure didn't act it very well. But, she got what she wanted, the manipulative bitch that she is, and Jynx and Puppy spent very little time together. :/ I have to hand it to Jynx though, he is handling it better then I ever would.

I was really hoping for a nice night drive last night. It's been so long since Jynx and I went out ghost hunting. Hell, it's been so long since we went out for an extended time period. I was perfectly willing to take Puppy and Fae along. But.. shit happens I guess.

My little prince(ss),

I must say, it must be nice to go through life surrounded by people who are nothing more then brown-noses. I mean... really, to be told by everyone around you that no matter what you do, you are *perfect*. Placing you on such a high pedestal and in your protective magic bubble because you buy their affections.

No wonder it comes as such a shock when you run into those who tell you the truth about yourself whether you like it or not. You can't handle the fact that you have faults.

No one is perfect, my pretty blue butterfly... Not even you.

Dear You,

Hey, it took you a few days but you finally figured out I was gone. I'm so sorry to hear that you are suffering from ennui seeing as you must have caught it from me. After all, I was suffering from it the entire time I had to deal with you. But worry not, eventually you will pass it on to someone els. Then, when they are in the mist of their suffering, they will realize it is because of you and will walk away as well.

Course, you will suffer from it again and again because you have this silly belief that the world revolves around you and your rather pompous attitude that you take with everyone who disagrees with you. Using your characters as scapegoats for the way you treat others is completely unacceptable. Some people do not like being treated like shit constantly. And some people get tired of trying to hide the fact that they are hurt by the words you say or the actions that you take. And yet you expect, even DEMAND, that they have no right to feel the way they do. You claim that they are trying to start drama and you can't be bothered with such silly nonsense.

Well, you know what? Everyone has a right to their own feelings. Perhaps one day you will be able to accept that. (Though I seriously doubt it.) As for starting drama? Please... You wouldn't have treated me like this is you didnt want a reaction. So here it is.

It took me about three days but thanks to surfthechannel.com, I managed to watch the entire season of True Blood.

No.. I have not read the Stackhouse books they were based on. I want to but I refuse to pay full price for books and the local used bookstores seem to be severely lacking when it comes to trying to purchase any of the books in that series.

Anyway....

As for plot/script/what-have-you, I love the t.v. series. Though it seemed to leave out a LOT between episodes 10 and 11. As for the characters, they were ok. "Vampire Bill" is not as good looking as I think he should be. (He should really do something with that hair of his.) His personality kinda sucks. I mean, you can be tall, dark, and mysterious without being incredibly boring. My favorite character is Lafayette... Unfortunately, it seems as though they killed him off. Pity. IMHO, he was the most interesting one.

I could have done without the amount of soft porn in every episode, but hey, gotta get the male demographic interested somehow I guess, so a bit of T&A is needed. I understand that in certain areas, the sex was an important part of the story. But I really don't need to see naughty bits jiggling to get the drift.

By all my favorite thing of the series is the opening song. Very nice. Very, very nice.

I find myself looking forward to another season of True Blood and to reading the books that the show is based off, should I ever find them.



I may do a real post later. For now I am just trying to see where things are.. so to speak.

Name change to Asraix. I always liked it better that way anyway.

At this moment, I am finding myself really disgusted with a certain girl I know. She has it out for one of my best friends and despite my continuous attempts to keep my mouth shut and stay out of things, I am beginning to find it nearly impossible as she continues to be a complete and utter cunt. She is a lazy, self-absorbed slob not to mention she is trying to take away my BF's boyfriend. Thankfully, that person is starting to see her for the bitch she really is. Unfortunately, he's pretty taken with her still.

In the past, I have avoided going over there for the simple fact that I didn't want to chance me going off on her when she was being a snot in my presence. This was only out of respect for my best friend. I don't want to start drama with this girl and leave him to clean up the mess. However, those days are done. He has given me permission to speak my mind from this point on because he is rather sick of her.

Is it bad that now I am waiting anxiously for the chance to rip into her?
So far, the situation has not presented itself. That's ok... I'm a patient girl and I can wait for the opportunity to come once again.

I spent the morning creating a banner for a contest that I am not all together certain I want to be a part of due to past.... "problems" that friends have had with the person who is running it. But if I stayed away, then I would be going back on one of my own rules. "Don't judge someone by what other people say about them." This is not to say that I wont be very careful. I always take into consideration experiences that other people have had. I'm just putting this person on a very strict probation.

I've been throwing myself into my work on IMVU lately. All in an effort to bottle up the heartache that I am going through. It will come out some time, I'm sure. But for now, it's best that I just focus on making hair, skin, and clothes to sell. I have a feeling that anything I creating for myself will be dark and sad. I hate when people play games with my heart. I hate it even more that I allow it. But then again, misery so often breeds creativity, so maybe I should just embrace it. I don't know.

Anyway, today I am working on a Ningyo set for my side account on IMVU. The Ningyo is from Japanese mythology and is a fish goddess who, if eaten, would guarantee eternal youth and beauty. I did the skin for it and started the fin work for it yesterday. I am *hoping* to finish at least one set of fins today. (Fins are a pain in the ass and would be SO much easier if I had a graphic tablet due to the detail.) I may post a pic of it when I am done. Not for certain yet. Depends on how much I like it I guess.

I'm still feeling like I am stumbling around here. Everything I like about being here is also everything I rather dislike. For instance, I like meeting new people. I also hate it because so many people in the world pretty much suck. You have to dig through a lot of crap to find someone who is worth it.

But then again, some may not think "I'm" worth it.

Pffft. Their loss.





I need to have more icons. *nods*

There's an ex I have, who, despite being together a VERY short time, still manages to cause me the most heartache. I tell them I don't care. I tell myself I don't care. I tell the entire world I don't care. But despite everything, my heart knows I am lying. And when my heart smacks me in my face and screams at me "YES!! YOU DO STILL CARE! DON'T DENY IT!", it's all I can do to not delete every single smidgen of my identity across cyber-space in an effort to close myself off from a world that has no face yet is able to shake me to my core. It would be so much easier if they didn't flaunt themselves and pretend to give a shit about how I feel. But that would be unfair of me to ask them not to do so. So I just suck-it-up and pretend it doesn't bother me. What els can I do? (Though if they send me any more gifts, I swear I will crack.)


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I bought myself a paid account here for 6 months. Figured that would be enough time for me to decide if I want to stay.

You know, you really have to love those obsession driven people who can't seem to leave well enough alone. You know the ones. Those that, after a huge fight (or a number of them), still find the need to google your name/screen-name and see if they can hunt down your MySpace, Twitter, or Deviant Art account. They go through your comments and your friends lists and sneak around reading your comments to your friends and their comments to you in hopes that maybe, just maybe, they can find something to bitch about again.

Then you have the really sick ones who want to invite you over for dinner just so they can talk shit about your friends to you all the while pretending to be "civil".

Yep. Some people just have absolutely No Life.
Pity.